This is new...

My heart is flailing about wildly within my chest, hollering "what the hell? Didn't we just do this?!" I feel it swell, I feel it beat like rain on pavement in the heaviest of storms. It freaks out, it slows, it quickens, it all depends on that one person, on what the two of you are making and it is terrifying. Everything is moving so fast but I don't want it to slow, I want to opposite, I want to run full speed ahead into it all. Welcome it. Because I think, this time, if I we to fall, this one would catch me, and hold onto me, he wouldn't use me, he wouldn't take me for granted, that is, if he ever feels the way I do. I can't tell him, it's too intense you know? Last thing I want to do is scare him. I'm not in love but I am close. No one has ever been around me the way that he is. Caring, attentive, wonderful. He makes me feel so good. I'm terrified that I am going to fuck it up. Scared beyond belief to be honest. We all know I'm not the most stable, a live wire. I just want to be with him. That is all I want right now. To be with him as much as possible so I can feel the way that he makes me feel as often as possible. That feeling is LOVED.

Away from here.