Here I Am.
- Danielle Renauld
- This is where I go when I have things to say but no one to say them to.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Sad.
No followers, no comments, is anyone reading this thing? I know that it isn't necessarily light or happy reading... well, I guess being that that is the case I suppose that I can understand why no one wants to read it. But then, what would be the point in even finishing the memoir, in trying to get it published, if no one is going to read it? Waste of paper, that's what that would be. Wow okay let's draw Dani's Little Pity Party to a close now. Sorry, my birthday does this to me. :/ . So read if you want, don't read if you want; I lay this story, my heart, my mind, my guts, before you and hope that you will at least give them a passing glance and a nod.
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I am!! Just haven't gotten very far because I've been busy :)
ReplyDeleteI am too now that I know it exists. I will be reading intently starting now my love.
ReplyDeleteBefore I read any further let me just breath. Dani - When your Dad called and We ran over no one was there yet except I beleive the 1st responders. I felt lost in a fog and like my heart was wrenched down into my stomach as I cried and hugged your Mom. I know logically that the downstairs was redone, but in my memories it hadn't been. To me the house all changed that day in May. I so wanted to fold you in my arms but I was afraid of your emotion. The shock everyone was in was so evident in you. I watched as you did what needed to be done and I watched you retreat. I knew your pain was confusing and sureal but I couln't help. I watched as your grandmother did the thing you discussed, what you might not remember is me having her take it somewhere else. She was driving everyone crazy. (Not to be mistaken with your Dad's mom). I do still shed tears for Jesse - Going through that with all of you made you close to my heart more then you already were. I still feel the distance that not knowing how to grieve or comfort over this has caused. I miss her shy private smile and so many other things. I know as you saw your Dad as human and fragile that it seemed to take away some security, but I saw as your Dad was so proud of you and realized your strength. I know Scott went up to help with Jesse and he also agreed with everyone that to see her as she was would burn a picture memory in me, you that if that could be avoided would spare you, me that burden. Well I am not a natural writer so sorry if it is scattered. I will keep reading and commenting. With Love.
ReplyDeleteWhat a memory! Total recall! It is good that you are posting this. It can be a catharsis for you. And good for others to understand what occurred should never have happened to a 16 year old, but sadly it did. Posting your memories is a personal thing for you to do, but it is so important for you and others as to better understanding life is real and not always a bed of roses. How we handle life's trials makes us what we are. Keep up the good writing.
ReplyDeleteLove, Grandpa